Have you tried masturbating alone in a room while he is somewhere else in your apartment?- Dan What else do you think I should try to do to solve this issue?
I am really attracted to him, and I really like sleeping with him. I feel that this is why I can't cum though I've never told him about any of that and I really don't want to but I really think that's why it's so hard for me to be open.
I have a lot of issues with my self including body dysmorphia disorder, eating disorders, and problems with self harm that I'm trying to work through. I want to continue to sleep with him but I feel if I continue not to be able to cum he won't want to. I still didn't cum, I don't know what to do. The other day I went over to his place and he had bought like 4 different types of dildos anal beads and a vibrator. He's said that he thinks I'm mentally having problems letting go, which is absolutely true but I still can't cum. I knew it bothers the guy I've been sleeping with he's tried really hard to get me cum with his mouth hands, and dick. My problem is I've never been able to cum with a partner in any capacity, I can't even make myself cum in front of them, I've just kind of accepted that I can't cum with another person only on my own. I'm 19 and I've been sleeping with a 39-year-old for a few months-which I know sounds like a really bad idea but he's really kind and I've enjoyed the time we've spent together and I'm really attracted to him.